Friday, May 21, 2010

I Finally Did It

"Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing" - Helen Keller

I did go on my "mini-retirement". My choice was for a mini-retirement was to travel. I traveled to Asia. Philippines, Hong Kong (2x), South Korea, Macau, Singapore, Indonesia and Malaysia. I spent most of my time in the Philippines and went all over - north to south.

It changed my life! I was gone for almost 2 years and it was a fucking blast! How can I describe it? I can't. Trying to do so would be a waste. You have to experience the "adventures" of travelling for yourself. You know how you cannot tell someone who never had money that money cannot buy them happiness, well it the same thing. Did I mention, I am not good at analogies? Well you get the point! Getting out there, meeting people, doing things, experiencing new things! I won't go through all the gory details - ill reserve that for another time.

For 2 years, I knew what it felt like to be alive. More importantly, I now know what I want. Now I have to figure out how to get what I want. Fuck! Figuring out how to get what you want is much of a bitch if not more than knowing what you want! So after all that, I am back to finding my muse! WTF? I did learn however, that by moving, creating action, I was able to figure out what I wanted. Maybe, I can apply the same in finding my muse! Just do it! Move, hence this blog. I don't even know if anyone will read this or how its going to make me money but its a move! I am creating action. Who knows, it might just lead me to my muse!

Thursday, May 20, 2010


"Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls" - Joseph Campbell

I must have edited this thing a thousand times. I don't know what to write! How can I find my bliss when I can't even write on how to start finding it? Where do I look anyway? Fuck!

Let's start from the beginning. This all started when I read the book FOUR HOUR WORKWEEK by Tim Ferriss. I was so inspired by this book that I am determined to change the world - at least my world -  bend it to my liking and make it my bitch.

FIND YOUR MUSE - the book says. I learned a couple of things in trying to find my muse:

1) Finding your muse is a bitch
2) I don't know myself enough to figure out what i really like
3) Finding a niche is even more of a bitch than finding your muse
4) I am too lazy to do all this stuff

I did all the stuff that the book said - well not exactly everything. I did try to create my product, visit a barnes and noble and look for obscure magazines, etc. Nothing worked, maybe because it doesn't work or I didn't really try it because I thought it wasn't going to work which was stupid. I mean how can I know if I don't try? I just told myself I am smart and that pretty much justified it for me. More importantly, I am too lazy to do any of it. I could have been "unmotivated" because I don't know exactly what I was doing but in closer scrutiny, unmotivated=lazy!

Maybe because I had a good job and got paid well. I didn't dislike what I did either. I was suffering from a tolerable and comfortable existence doing something unfulfilling - which was apparently the most common and the most insidious case! Tim was right - I was bored out of my mind and had to do something before I went postal on myself!

Fuck it! my thinking has been very uptight. I am being very undude! I don't know exactly what I want but I do know what I don't want. Ill go for my "mini-retirement" and "hope and pray" that I would find my MUSE along the way.

And so I quit my job, rented my condo, gave my car to my parents, packed my bag and went on my way!